Wingless

"An absence of faith is like a bird without wings"


As i was scanning the entry of some people online, they were telling their success in their life and also disappointment in their life, I (with projection here), then remember myself. I could not deny the fact that I would always blame God for most of my unsuccessful events,failing exams and death that was happening in my life. I had been so stiffed to my decision that I would never ever asked for any prayers from Him.

Maybe it was some kind of displacement, where i could not blame somebody, but i think it was part and it is part of our everyday living, that trials would always be there. I became atheist after being an alter boy for more than 3 years i guess and every time i had problem i would always defy God. I said to myself that i can make it without you. I have this notion that when i am near to God, we were always suffering. Maybe, i had so much faith and loyalty to the religion, that simple disappointment would led me to letting go so fast.

Honestly, i do not like going to the church, attending masses and even listening to the homily of the priest. When i was in high school, the nun in our school, was so amazed with my homily book, because i wrote every word that the priest was talking in the middle of the altar, and i also pointed out every lessons he wanted us to know. But it changed, time changed, i am not that so dedicated to our church anymore and i would be happy to stay at home. However,after listening to this music which i really liked, i said to my self that there would be always hope and as a dream maker, somewhere and somehow, it will be completed.

Be inspired to this music and maybe learn how to fly like a bird that has wings attached to their body.